I very happening

Busy busy meeting up with people, christmas presentation, James' MV and packing (or about to).

Today was awesome. Started off with a morning 40mins walk with Deb at Kiara park. Talking and panting at the same time wasn't easy. But good stuff! especially since dance ended last week.

Also, managed to catch lunch with Jas last minute! Was such a great time. Waited half an hour for her to find a parking and then spent time eating fried chicken with our hands while we talk about life, nonsense and everything else. Then, we went shopping for her grandad's present and finally grocery shopping. Hilarious. Took a couple of minutes deciding on which beef to get, making fun of food brands and lastly when we went to pay......express counter was for 8 items and below. How many she had? 10. Ten. So, I took the 2 lightest stuff. The herbs. =.= and we paid separately.
Then there was this guy behind us holding to 2 coconuts in his hands. Oh that was funny.

Dance practice went well too. Oh the beautiful lights!!! I pulled a muscle on my shoulder and I hope it'll heal before Saturday. My last performance here. *sighs*

I love today. Though the sky was gloomy, my day felt well spent.

I can't study when I cry.
I can't rub my wet eyes when I have contacts on.

God. If you don't open a door for me now, I'm gonna start loosing it.

Updates!

Today I had my first bye byes. The last CF meeting. Hmm...I've so much to reflect on, which I will do after finals. Today was like every other meeting but with more goodbyes. Those graduating and leaving overseas got hand decorated cups! So touching *sniffs*.

Also, met up with a friend I have been planning to. Hearing how God has planned everything for her seemed so unbelievable. As I sat there for a couple of minutes just amazed, there I was partly worrying about me. Where was my miracle? at the 11th hour again? Where was the assurance that she got? We both shared our parts and agreed that the annoying and troubling part was WAITING. Waiting for answers, confirmation and on God.
*exhales* my heart is so not at ease. Daily I get reminders and emails about this from mum and dad and I just don't know what to do. I feel like flying to aus right now and march to Curtin to get answers myself. =(

Putting all that aside, I was a great day. Dim sum & berbonding with Esther, being there for the last CF for the year.

Lots more to do! (and now I shall go back to studying)

MS. GRUMPY

I feel terrible. Especially this past week. I'm pissed at people for the smallest reasons. Pissed at technology, pissed at people nagging, pissed at not understanding what I'm studying, pissed at thinking of apologizing, pissed at myself for getting ticked off so easily.

SIGH.

Bye bye kiddos

Super chun outfit!

Friday was the last day of work at Peter & Jane. Celebrating children's day with them made my day. Once again, the pretty, interesting and smart costumes and......FOOD. There were cakes, cupcakes, chocolates, cookies and junk food everywhere. Oh how I miss celebrating children's day in primary school. haha.

Really gonna miss them. So much. It's kinda sad to know that they might forget me. When I visit next year, there will be new faces and faces who are no longer there. It is sad. Will miss those who are moving on to primary school.

The 'superstar' in nursery

The boy with gorgeous eyes and brings fruit to school everyday

Perceptions, perceptions.

Few things I learnt in CF today :
-God does what is best for His church. If anyone stood out like gangrene, they will be rid off like Ananias and Sapphira.

And everything came down to this amazing truth....

Judgement always comes hand in hand with Love.

....that God judges in love, and His love is just.

Love & Redemption

Redeeming Love.

Another beautiful, captivating, heart-pounding novel.

The word 'Love'. What meaning does it carry, or is it a foul word?. The disgusting past people carry like ‘old baggage’ everywhere they go. Perceptions on others and the bitterness people carry due to unknowingly forming judgments. The beauty of knowing God forgives and will never forsake his children. The terrible feeling of guilt acting as though nothing had happened. Accepting another’s judgment, believing the shame belongs. Once like this, always like this. The feeling of unworthy-ness to receive unconditional love from another. The feeling of life and warmth when someone brushes on one’s skin instead of being numb to touch. Knowing the importance of being loved. A love that comes with sacrifice and not pride. To believe that God works through anyone. And to also know that God is a jealous God. To know my identity in Him and not wrap myself around what others say about me behind my back.

My loving father, I pray that you guard my heart as how I read about the character Francine Rivers wrote in her novel.

I want to be beautiful

Make you stand in awe

Look inside my heart and be amazed

I want to hear you say

Who I am is quite enough

Just wanna be worthy of love and BEAUTIFUL.

-Beautiful by Bethany Dilon-

Ah….what a great weekend!

The girls’ part 2 was amazing. The deco was great, the photo booth was perfect with the lights and additional props, the food was yummy, beautiful & sumptuous desserts were made by a friend, pretty door gifts, the girls dressed beautifully, endless photo taking and ministry time with Mrs Piper was such a success when the Holy Spirit worked through some of the girls. All the effort, moments of dissatisfaction, lack of sleep etc didn’t matter anymore during the event. God was there to turn all imperfection to His perfect plan. I can breathe out and say “Thank you God for humbling moments and the girls truly are, your precious, beautiful princesses. “

Home-baked! With butterflies!

Looks amazing, no? They tasted sooo good.

Dance to 'The Real Me'

Oh, do we just love dancing!

Sunday, we all looked sleepy, some zoned out and some overly hyper. Our small presentation for Pastor’s birthday turned out to be a beautiful moment for him. I can’t imagine any other way to redo the performance. The song touched his heart, the funny moments at the end with strimmers and party hats created a cheery atmosphere. Thank you God for a loving pastor who has such a big heart.

Selah in Progress

After Annette's sharing in CF today, I realize how important it is to have 'company' with God and that it's OK to blame God and wrestle with Him about anything under the sun.

Of course, something happened. I have to give away RM50 for a lousy cause. The fault is mine.....but I don't see how this is 'beneficial'. It's a lot. And with what's been happening, I can't believe it.

But then......today I learnt that its not in quiet places or places of serenity where I should try to find God, but in my current situation. It's a whole lot of effort......but it's worth the try.

Update!

So glad to be dancing again!!! after a weeks of 'break'. Had a torturous start that I cannot lift my arms for even 1 minute without feeling the heavy-ness.

When I woke up today, OMG. I really Did get a sorethroat!!! The funny part is I got it yesterday in dance class. Being upside down, trying to swallow my saliva. Seriously, what a fascinating and disappointing experience.

Today is Christine's last day working in P&J. Glad to know her and work with her these past weeks and the atmosphere will get more quiet without her around. So sweet to give us all a farewell present. =)

Tomorrow and Sat is time for brainstorming and berbonding with CF committee once again. What a packed weekend. Now that I think of it.........in just a week+, I've had and will be involved in 5 worship sessions. O_O Good stuff. I love singing. Even if I sound off sometimes. hahaha.

Kingdom Women Conference

"United"
for such a time as this

Such an amazing experience I had. Pastors Jem, Sam Evans, Debbie Prescott and the founder of Tenaganita, Irene Fernandez made huge impacts in the 24hrs we had. I've come out of the hall yesterday, more confident, free, brave, filled with joy, and trusting God much more. God worked something in me. It's just unexplainable to suddenly have a new feeling in me. =)
The words spoken by Ps Sam were so true. That Jesus is terrifying and fun, the God doesn't bring storms to 'test' our faith and that Jesus is already in my boat(destiny) throughout the journey to the other side. As she made us shout individually yesterday, it really pushed me. Something I haven't been experiencing for awhile and I'm glad for a cold-fresh wake up call. "I'm crossing over!"

Irene also shared her story and experience with girls who were trafficked. Crazy stuff. About 2 mil of the population in Malaysia are illegal workers. Hearing about how girls and women are tricked into prostitution seems like a story heard so often......and its disturbing. Promised a job to provide for their family and then have their identity and integrity taken away without any say. People treated even Worse than animals. It really is sad to hear God's creation being treated by another in such a way. It makes me cringe after watching each movie clip concerning this during the conference.

I'm glad I had friends who went. What a great, priceless experience.

Because of that.....
I attended youth today with a different attitude. The songs chosen and the sharing by Isaac and Kelsey seemed to be connected with what I've gained at the conference. I went today with so much confidence I wished I had since forever. Woohooo!!!

I'm crossing over!!!!!!

Words of encouragement =)

"Sometimes God calms the storm, sometimes He lets the storm rage and calms His child"

Yesterday was my last bible study with Lydia. I've learnt so much from her and the quote she shared above is something so comforting. To know that God is the absolute authority.

"Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass...It's about learning to dance in the rain."

Another quote today from an email mummy sent.

I came to Aus on such a cold day, and now I'm leaving on another. Brrrrr.
I will miss this!

Be up in....4 hours. Dark, freezing morning. And not looking forward to another un-sleep-able flight by Air Asia.

5th day of Aus trip!

Today's weather is just nice. Not too cold to be wearing jackets. One thing that I really love about it here is the parks. People sitting anywhere on the green grass spending time together or even just wasting their lives away. I've always wanted to do that but the grass in Malaysia are usually too long, gives out a strong smell or full of mud. There's green almost everywhere here and the skies look extra blue with a mess of clouds.

Food is awesome. Grocery shopping here is SO fun! There's all kinds of everything. The roast chicken are sooo good, coming out fresh from the oven so there's still a soft and juicy texture to it. Fruit juices mainly come in huge plastic bottles and the cheese section is so wide.

People here are generally nice. The take time to convey their words politely and add a huge smile to it. A cashier at a huge supermarket made my day the other day.

I have only a few days left here before I go back to Malaysia and start a new sem. Sigh. Wish I had more time for me to do my own stuff like journaling, making a scrapbook, read some books and even think about the year ahead. Like blogging right now =)

A yolk to carry

I'm upset, mad, hurt and confused.

How do I express my appreciation all out if you always seem so cold and 'expect so much outta me'? Everytime I try to be myself in front of you, you think I'm being immature and 'improper'. What's more, you tell other people unconcerned how 'disappointing' I am. Now, hearing you 'ask' for a 'thank you' isn't easy for me to give because even if I do, how much of it will be 'considered' as 'sincere' to you?
It took me so much guts to even ask a favour from you and now I feel like I'm being stepped on, whether knowing or unknowingly. I'm a 20 year old in a family who isn't causing major problems in the family and I really don't have any favour at all in your eyes????

But I really am thankful. Just wish you could see it from a Humble point of view.

Children recited a poem I never learnt before:

Soft kitty, warm kitty,
Purr purr purr,
Sleepy kitty, happy kitty
Purr purr purr.

SHELDON!!! HAHAHAHA

PRASIA

Made new friends from the Philippines! It's a good thing to know who people who stay in the church's guest house.

They sang so well, I got goosebumps. Singing in parts so well and confidently in a group is the amazing-est thing ever. They sound like a music track with such clear pronunciation. Of course, the sound guy played a huge role, but wow.

Carnavaaaaal

Had my first meat buffet ever!! And it was good. A hole in my pocket but at least I enjoyed it and I’d rather this than fine-dining. =)There was beef, fish, prawns, lamb, ham, chicken, sausages, 'interesting' garlic bread and pineapple! Nyom nyom nyom.

The past few days of lack of appetite, I’m glad it went away yesterday. I was a lil’ more hungry during lunch and dinner turned out good! (pulling out from Carnaval would be trouble. hahaha). Had the chance to enjoy what I put on my plate and even taking it down with a good feeling. Mmmmmm.

Dum dum tak!

I can't believe it is already over!!!! One month of dance stress has passed. The excitement of moving into a new building has happened! Woohoo!

The performance was great. Though the biggest mistake made, was made. But it was an awesome time. To be on stage, with people I hardly know, doing a hip hop routine under a choreographer who we enjoyed having too. Come to think of it, this is probably one of the last performances I will get to do before I go to aus. sigh.

The lights were great, there were no technical errors and all of us had so much fun. After one upsetting rehearsal the week before, we managed to perform with so much 'umph', and we got good feedback. That sunday was our turning point. Really thank God we cleaned up the mess together as youths of Grace Assembly. Wasn't easy to push people considering I wasn't much of a 'Leader' in uth. But God answered my prayer. He gave me an opportunity to take charge of something I had a passion for. Like Lydia said, it isn't so much of our destination but our journey there. Those were tough weeks having to attend practices for this and ghm. Most importantly, to show that I am dedicated to each and not neglect either one. =)

The procession under GHM was amazing too. Though I almost tripped on my skirt =( and bumped the crown into my brother's, it felt so amazing to be up there and to feel the awe. The sound of tambourines filled the entire place and with banners and strimmers. Looking at every child to adult in different attires dancing to that beautiful song felt really majestic. Plus, it was my first time wearing the 'bride' attire. I've never worn a tiara! And I've realized how difficult it is to keep one on one's head. haha.
I grew up in this ministry, and I'm proud to be able to lead others, as how I was taught. Uncle has always been like a second father to me. Encouraging me, joking around with me, giving me opportunities, making me feel special just like how he treats his children. For this, I am so blessed.

As always, there's picture time after performances. And since we all had interesting roles, the outfits we had on were so interesting! The pictures looked hilarious. I personally had a great time being a character I had no idea how to play. Rushing to change from the previous outfit was tough. Safety pins and hair pins...what an experience. The 'nerdy' outfit took me ages to decide on. In the end, I decided to wear overalls which made me look fat, stunted and plain silly. Plus, I realized at the last minute behind stage that doing the 'baby freeze' in that was very restricting. The safety pin popped! Glad it went well on stage, yes. Phew!

Right now, I am so tired yet excited for what's happened tonight. Thank you God for an amazing night with people.

Couldn't have done it without Lydia

"I wouldn't know"

Bright lit smiles,
Words of praise,
Things I always remember,
And a song my heart sings
Once upon a December.

Someone holds me safe and warm,
Memories flow through a heavy storm,
Figures dancing gracefully,
Tis' only just a dream,

Years went by, long ago,
Still I yern to remember,
In my sleep, someone sings,
Once upon a December

Now a song I will sing,
Once upon a December.

We gonna do stunts! Jason showed us a few like they were so easy, as he said so.
I would really really love to do ALL that.

So he taught us how to do the 'baby freeze'. The guys were given no choice to do the 'chair freeze'. Oh poor them. But it looks pretty cool!!! Now, I don't have to do the 'shoulder freeze' cos it hurts like crazy. I am proud of my self for accomplishing the baby freeze in a couple of hours. After so many bad landings, bruises, failed attempts.......I have gotten it. I found my spot! Now, just have to Pray that everyone including me, will be able to FREEZE for a couple of seconds. Really really hope so.

Sunday's rehearsal came with discouraging comments. But I'm glad and so proud that everyone made it a point to push for more. Yesterday's practice was very technical, but productive! Performance is this sunday!!! *deep breaths* I'm not sure if I feel excited about moving into the new building or that I'm just nervous about how the performance is gonna turn out at a new stage, new flooring and new Everything!

There's this feeling deep down that I may not be doing the right thing. On what basis? Being too contemporary for the congregation. Like I'm a rebel or something. I don't have any evil intentions, just excitement to do a dance I (and others) enjoy. The opportunity to let the youths do moves they're really good at and hopefully break a few mindsets, especially during this event of 'Moving up'.

*yawns*

Time for some updates!

Been sleeping A Lot. Too much actually. But it's hard to say No to my want to sleep. mmmmmm.

Also, been doing lots of danciiinnn'. Usual class on wed with a new hip-hop routine for the church dedication performance on sat and practices on mon & tues. How's it feel? Exciting, challenging, refreshing & tiring. This is the first time I've had to really listen to a song and have a sudden "Oh I hear that beat!" moment. I get to have four sessions of hip-hop for RM20, which is pretty good. I'm fascinated by how fast the moves are and how I just can't get certain movements (which are unexplainable). Yesterday's practice was so tiring, I came home and gulped down 2 glasses of iced juice and made me oats!

Jas' birthday just passed 2 days ago. I miss going to school and taking my seat next to her; the girl who brings a super huge backpack and a romp plastic bag for her books, who randomly scribbles on my book, who allows me to copy notes from her book when my eyesight fails to read what the teacher writes on the board, who always declined my request to back-up sing for chapel, who told me she'll support me no matter what, who knew my thoughts, who spent a couple of hours teaching me factorization, who listens more than talk & who always encouraged.

Daddy's going back to aus this friday to start the new business. Then it'll be just mum and siblings again. When dad's around, the stuff at home and the cars get fixed. The bills get paid.

Su will also be leaving to Switzerland this friday. I can't believe how fast time has flown by. Few months ago she was telling us how many months she has to bum and take french classes. And now, she's gonna go so far away. Another friend away. There will be less company during outings and sleepovers. Fewer girls to pillow talk with. =) When my turn comes, I wonder how would I feel. heh.

I want to cry. And pull my hair out. And cry.

I wonder how God feels when he imagines his awesome plans but man chose to take the long journey to get there.

I imagine it to be big, to be something new and Moving Up...but I have no idea where it's all headed...which bugs meeeee. Do I just settle with simple and laid back since the awesome doesn't seem like it will happen and it may be just because I looked forward to having That as a super chun event?

God help me. To not be half-hearted. To accept what's reasonable even when it's not the best it could be.

New things everyday...

This sem, I'm placed in different classes almost everytime I go to P&J. Meet more kiddos, know more names so I can greet them by name when I open doors for them and warm up with them only to find out I'm placed in another class another day.

Today was special. After being once at the Saujana branch, I drove to the one in the one DJ and spent 4 hours there since they were short-handed. When I got there, I realized that the school was this huge 2 storey house. During meal time, they have their own decorated/designed mats with their names on it so that they know where to sit. They even have dessert after meals! (Today's was fruit cocktail). They brush their teeth after lunch, each having their own toothbrush, toothpaste and comb on their mini trays on the shelves. So cute.

The only small struggle I had there was the inability to converse in mandarin. There were about 10 primary school children there who go to Yuk Chai and the teacher in charge speak to them in mandarin most of the time. I pretty much understood their convos at least...a mix of mandarin and english.

So, I spent most my time there towel drying the kiddos and helping them dress up. One boy jumps up and down while putting on his shirt instead of pulling it down. Another kept tucking his tummy in, fascinated with how his ribs were showing.

The best part of today was nap time. It was my first time in a daycare and the 'beds' they slept on were interesting. This green hard-rubbery-netting material. On top of each are their pillows, bolsters, blankets, and mini pillows for some. So comfy. The feel of being there and tucking them into bed was new to me, and it felt nice. How I wish I had this opportunity to nap when I was in kindi.

Don't know when I'll be returning there, but I hope to someday.

GHM getaway

After 2 years of no camp, we're back again at Golden Sands! Feels like we were there just a couple of months ago.
That place will always feel like a comfy place to be. More outdoors than indoors. I love being there to enjoy the beach, nice places for morning devos and pretty flowers. hehe.

Such a wonderful coincidence that our camp theme was...

"SHINE like STARS"

What a great theme...CF and now GHM. Anywways, though there weren't as many people this round, it still was a good time. Made new friends, played fun games, drank lotsa coffee, kick the sand, enjoyed looking out at the horizon and of course, taking tons of pictures to my heart's content. Kevan's camera was super chun. Awesome moments caught for long term memories.

As tradition, we always had the memo pad writings. At I think that these are the best things to bring home. Handwritten notes directly for me. Shows how real I am in the view of others. They always bring smiles to my face and I thank God for the opportunity to know these people. As I read them at the dining table during dinner, I could feel myself smiling so wide. Even the simplest words of a 11 year old touched my heart.

Playing the piano for over and hour to songs and chords from the top of my head was also a challenge to me. I realized how I could worship God in this way. I hear people singing praises to God while I just play, following their tune. It was a beautiful moment to be drowned in. I wasn't sure what they were listening to or how they felt about the music but I think God was blessing me through them. Of always feeling insecure, He gave me a chance to be brave and I'm thankful I allowed myself to try. Uncle, Winny, Aunty Kim, Aunty Penny and my friends were supportive and encouraging. When I had to do it the second time, I felt more than happy to because I was able to be an instrument to help lead God's people into a time of worship and praising God. They didn't mind my mistakes or when I struggled to find the chords they were singing to.

Uncle gave an illustration about a pear tree who wanted to keep more for itself instead of having more fruits taken away. He talked about whether it mattered that we have little or more, what we should do with what we have. Be it 1 talent or 100.

Then we broke into groups and did a lil' activity. We were told to take a piece of paper randomly and then share about how it relates to us. Mine was HILL. Each of us took turns; Board, movie, ship, honey, flower, fish, gate, world, film, gaze, see.....etc. When we finished, we were then told that there's a common thing that all these words shared. The word 'STAR'. It was a super hung thing. After sharing about what hill meant to me, the star made it an amazing word. It made total sense to me as I was really taken back by the thought.

What an amazing time of rest during this getaway. Thank you God for your blessings and awesome humor as well.

Happening. Happening. Happening!!!

This week is so far the most happening of the year!
On Monday, I went to Saujana Villa. P&J had a branch there though it's only one class, catered specially for the residence of the condo. There were a few japanese kids, 1 autistic boy. Yohan, one of the obedient ones had really fair skin, freckles and bright blond hair. Interesting bunch. I managed to get this shy japanese girl to warm up to me (well, became more like STUCK) by conversing to her in japanese. Whatever words I picked up by watching anime. Wasn't I super fascinated with myself. haha.

Tuesday was the day when I knew I was going out with Fel, Abi and Ai Vee having no idea of the occasion or any details. Turns out Abi and I were bought our birthday presents; Haagen Dazz's Fondue. FONDUE. Oh...that was just. Awesome. Chocolate. Warm chocolate dip, 4 types of ice-cream...and other sides (cake, fruit, cookie) to be dipped into the WARM MELTED chocolate. That was just the bomb. Then we spent a looong time there talking and talking while Abi and I constantly took small dips of melted chocolate to fulfill our satisfaction. thumbs up!!!!
When we finally decided to stop, we walked around searching and deciding our stop for dinner. Being girls, it took ages to decide but we ended up at Chili's. Burgers and lamb steaks. Yumyum. And of course.......more talking. We chatted until the shops were closing and when people started smoking in there. Not cool.
We did think about going to dessert but since it was getting late, Ai Vee parked her car outside Fel's place and we TALKED SOME MORE. Hilarious subjects were discussed and I'm sure that if anyone were to walk by, they would've heard our loud laughter. All of us had a story to tell and exchanging them was just...the funniest conversation ever! Especially in the car at the eleventh hour.
Oh what an outing we had. This was how I spent my Wesak Day this year.

Wednesday came. James turned 2 decades!!!! (Good job for waiting to open his present, somewhat). Mayuri planned a small birthday dinner as a surprise. And as always, he tries to keep his 'cool' or a poker face which isn't very convincing. (If you're reading this, oh well). I made a Hot pink shirt!!! Lousy he wasn't being a good sport to carry out the task given (=p).
Anyway, I got back just on time for contemp class. Went home to pick my fees, and mum said to drive instead because of the storm outside.
WHO KNEW I would be stuck right outside my housing area, and not even 1 min away from my dance studio....waiting and begging the procession on the road to pass by quickly for a few mins. Sigh. It was such a big deal. People were walking the streets with umbrellas all soaking wet since the rain was really bad. If only caroling during Christmas would be as awesome as that was. If only 'Easter' would be just as happening on the streets of Malaysia. =)
I missed 15mins of class but thankfully not the hardest parts. Wednesday's class was just crazy. The types of falls we had to do was really tough. Times like this reminded me of netball training in highschool; being stretched to my limits. I never thought of needing my arms to do so much other than help my family carry heavy bags of groceries and luggage when we travel. Never thought of using them to catch myself when I fall (literally). Today was the first time I had so much doubts of myself to even try the move. After doing it a handful of times and falling terribly, I gave up, promised to try on my bed at home. I hope I'll get right it by next week. But again, great workout, great time sweating it out. And, I met Kim! God is amazing. First, the girl I shared political science class with, then met her in church during Sat service one day to only find out that she started attending not too long ago and now, dance class. Haha.

Thursday, I managed to rest a lil'. At kindi, I helped out with waterplay for the first time. Darting away from water splashes wasn't fun. After, I helped the children change into their uniforms. Tough job when all they do is stand and not help by letting their waist swing along when I'm trying to pull their pants/skirts up. Gah. Worked with the 5 year olds once again (missed my lil babies upstairs). Another new bunch of children. Fun bunch. I sat through their lesson and laughed along as they gave silly answers innocently. Teacher also pening kepala.

Friday morning was a busy busy morning. Having stayed up late to pack (half) and type up my portfolio for CF, I woke up a lil' later and rushed rushed rushed. Late for class. Ooops. Had a good time of class, committee changeover during CF and rushed once again back home to continue packing for ghm getaway. The beach!!

What a week! Thank you God for events in my life!

And oh! Daddy's birthday is todayyy!!!! Sadly he won't be coming back just yet. God please help him. I cringe at the thought of knowing that ANYTHING can just go "poof!" and efforts would have gone to waste. Matt 6:34. Amen.

2 decades of Life

Finally came the day when I stepped out of a teenage life. Been 8 years since I wrote a 2 and 10 years since a 0 whenever I fill in my age.

This year, I had unreasonable dreams of how I wanted to celebrate my birthday. Imaginations of a beautiful ballroom with amazing deco and breathless moments. haha. Even so, it was awesome. Right smack at the beginning of my break.

Honestly, even until now I can't believe that I got to see SWITCHFOOT!!!!!!! LIVE!!!!! ohhh my gossshhh. I never would have expected it even if my friends joked about getting me to see 'em.

My birthday started off like another sunday. Church, dance practice. Just the extra of a special dinner with Su and Victor. Irish food! In a pub. haha. YUMMM. I had lamb stew (supposed to order beef, but I forgot) with cranberry juice!

Then came the 'plan'. Su said she left something with jas and had to get it by tonight because it was for the sleepover. Thus , we rushed off after dinner. When I saw jas, I joked and told victor and su that we should kidnap her, knowing she has a concert to go to. Well, just maybe lah. BUT, when she opened the door, Victor announced that she was there to kidnap me. ME!!! I had NO IDEA!!! So while I was trying to make sense of what was happening, I just left Jas getting wet in the rain. oh well.

Oh man...the concert was great. The only sad part of it was when I wasn't allowed to bring my awesome camera in when I saw people having theirs when I went in!!! haih. Also, my height made it harder for me. haha. But yes, I was excited that I was there to see switchfoot, for real! Like whoa! Too bad I didn't know all the songs well enough to sing along (wasn't prepared, duh!). The lights were superb too. How I wish I could be part of the set up!

I went home and had a good sleepover time with Su. Girly times are best when we're comfy and tucked under out blankets. haha.

So on monday, jas, su, victor and I went for chili pan mee at noon! and snow ice right after. mmmm. Went home, prepared food and deco.

Cream puffs!!! YUMMMMM!


Tiramisu cake from ALEXIS!!!

Victor bought me so much food for my birthdaaayyy!!

The night was awesome. Mummy made the yummiest spaghetti sauce ever and food was good. Pictionary cards!! Of course, some picture taking by Daniel, the photographer for the event. At the end, present opening with Manda, Galen, Pong and Daniel. Had such a good time...meeting up and just bumming together. I like birthdays for this reason!

Thank You God for highlighting birthdays!!

Purple pen!!! With my name!!

What a deco for my birthday. But what are girlfriends for eh? haha

=D

The bad thing about REM sleeps...recall-able nightmares.

I dreamt about the world and mankind coming to an end. There was a flood and water and small strong waves were entering houses. Having said that, my family and I weren't even in our current home, but my uncle's previous house. =( not cool. I didn't get a good sleep.

I wonder why my brain interpret random neurons that fire randomly. Nonsense. I should ask Freud what water and waves represent in dreams.

Gah, counseling paper please don't be so long-winded. I am restless from reading the notes already.

ALIVE @ the Park

Muddy feet in flip flops! Is one thing I'll remember.

After sitting for a paper I wasn't at all satisfied with, I felt uncomfortable that I had to be involved in leading people into a time of worship later. Then, 1 Thessalonians 5:18 popped into mind as I sat there in the exam hall waiting to exit. My confidence still wasn't there. Kept thinking about my paper and I wondered how I could just have a shift of thought at this time. The thunderstorm didn't help at all. It was pouring so bad that the sound check couldn't be done as people were trying to sort out the electronics and scooping out as much water they can from the ground. What a mess.
Looking back at the whole event, everything went well. The instruments had no problems, the lights were Awesome and people still turned up for the rally. Pastors were there to give their support and yes, I did, "Give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus."
I'm not sure if I was just being ignorant to what happened in the afternoon, or I was just to busy to think about it. But I'm glad I had something to distract me right after the exam. Yes, I am still worried about it now but there's nothing I can do about it but to accept my results. And well....to remember God in whatever happens.

21st April

We finished the dance! Not the whole song though since we were only supposed to learn the 1st stanza. But I guess that's enough for now. 1 min and 30 secs of dance didn't feel that short.

Next week is video recording session. I hope I'll do it well. If not, super embarrassing man. hahaha.

Hello lil' brusies once again. The worst part of having em is forgetting its there and once pressure is put, there's the few seconds of recovery from pain. Oh, the receptors.

hmmm. So the dance for cell is postponed to june, which definitely is a good thing since I have more time during the hols to concentrate on Mother's Day.
This weekend will be exciting and tiring. Uth rally, I hope that'll turn out awesome and for Sunrise Service, oh God help us with the dance. I haven't felt so unprepared for a presentation. *fingers crossed*

Ju li's paper is tomorrow! *deep breaths*


*lies in bed and sings* "My dear, we're slow dancing in a burning room...."

What made my day

The moment i stepped into 7 eleven, a lil' adorable fair-skinned chinese boy held up his brand new Hotwheels car to me and said "ka ka!" which he meant "Car car!". This really caught my attention and I couldn't help but smile at him and repeat what he said to me. I grumbled getting down from the car just to follow my sis get her supper but...awwww I feel so warm and fuzzy inside. =D

The tube of Toblerone today didn't give me this much alert-ness. Haha.

Boargames session! #1

I woke up to a breezy and cool morning. mmmmm.

Yesterday was fun. Another meet up with Victor, Jas, and Manda. Su had her own holiday and Jane joined us for the first time! We spent hours on boardgames, messing with your friendships. hahaha. I think game masters and creators are just out there to bring whoever down, friend and foe. I usually stick to pictionary and cranium to be safe. haha.

Since it was raining heavily outside and we were the only ones in the shop, we had a great time of laughter and noise. Oh it was a good release of 'I'm not sure of what'. I learnt 3 new games today! We played Niagara, Apples to apples (which wasn't my type of game) and ended with a super awesome and noisy game of Saboteur. There I was sitting among friends who had to lie, try to convince another that she/he wasn't lying and accusing. Saboteur was hilarious. All the poker and naive faces.

I see purple gems!!!

Conclusion : We are going back again! woo hoo!