Thursday, September 30, 2010

Birthday and Tragedy

I have 2 feelings at about the same moment. Joy wishing a friend a great birthday on skype and speechless-goosebump feeling when i heard someone i knew passed away tragically. 

Let's deal with the sad part first. Warren told me the news and i was shocked. Just couldn't believe it. I dare not imagine the scenario. I remember when i heard a similar news last year, it hit me so unexpectedly that i didn't have words to say. Why did people i know have to die? (its so human to think this way though life and death aren't in our control). I find it so hard to empathize with people when it comes to this. Things happen so suddenly, people start sharing their regrets and lend whatever help they can. Oh man, it's so unbelievable. =(

http://pressrepublican.com/0100_news/x1560863425/Hit-and-run-driver-identified

God, i don't know what to say....I pray you give his parents Strength to go on LIVING. Let them not wake up and go to bed everyday feeling such deep sorrow. Be their Hope. Amen.



Yes, so the better part for last. Almost forgot a friend's birthday until i got home and realized the date. (times when i don't write notes in my notebook, i tend to not be aware of the date). Sorry!  

So, he is away from home and has made skype calls on his 18th birthday. haha. Blessed birthday Wee yen!!! I was half past midnight and you Tried to stay awake. Awww. Many more surprises coming your way I'm sure! God will bless you in so many awesome ways i know it. 

Such fun!!

Woke up, drove to college, parked, hopped into victor's car and to SMSS we go!!!  (skipping computer class isn't so bad. hehe)

School still feels sorta like home. Aunty Molly's yummy tom yam bi hun. Still as sour, still the same colour. hehe. Food at college burns money. 

Teachers. I miss. 

So what did the four of us do?

BUM.

Pong struggled with the lock to the sports complex but it didn't budge. Half an hour. Then he settled for football. Matt, victor and i..set on the 'bleachers'. Guitar and camera and shouts of "BALL!!". Watched the girls do nothing cos they had no part of the beautiful FAKE GRASS field. Gosh it's so nice to see it green and not desert-looking. haha. 

When the sun came up, we moved to the hall. Never thought of bumming there. Weird. So we played emo music while victor took his 1 hour nap. The coolness of the aircond and the sound of the piano that stayed in the hall. Relaxing. 

Went to eat at a different chilli pan mee shop. Yum yum yum. Burn pocket some more. But food is good. With friends, even more fun. 

Thank you victor for driving meeeee!!! 




Wednesday, September 29, 2010

No turning back

*deep breaths*

Not mine, but Your will be done. You know what's best for me.  =)

Saturday, September 25, 2010

STUPID GIRL. 

Friday, September 24, 2010

What should I do??

I hate it when it is my fault. I hate it when everyone is dragged down because of me. I hate it when this happens because of my own carelessness and mistake. 

Thursday, September 23, 2010

SHAME.ON.ME

Heard a *thump* sound, and when i turned, i saw a girl a few feet away kneeling down to pick up her books. I saw a guy next to me who turned back too. 

And i feel really small now. Why didn't i go to her and help her? The whole time,i was thinking "Does she need help? She's picking them up so if she stands about now then she's okay". When i looked back at her, that thought played in my mind over and over and over. Somehow 'hoping' my thoughts of sympathy will help her get on her feet. Nonsense!!!! I deserve a smack on my head. 

I wish i could turn back time a couple of hours and do what my heart told me to. 

God, i'm sorry. There was an opportunity and i blew it. 



Wednesday, September 22, 2010

The day i decided to not feel spoilt

RapidKL, fail la you.

Don't say i didn't give you a chance to prove yourself. 

Monday, September 20, 2010

Fantasy kept alive


I do! I do! I do believe in fairies! I do! I do! I do believe in fairies! I do! I do! I do believe in fairies! *repeats* 

That was when i watched Peter pan. 

Today, i lil' girl from kindi smiled at me with her jolly face showing me the gap in her mouth where her tooth once was. She said "teacher! that day my tooth came out and then i put it under my pillow and the fairy gave me money! " I asked how much and she replied "1 dollar!!!" with the happiest smile. 

I reinforced her reactions. haha. Couldn't burst a bubble of a child. 

Saturday, September 18, 2010

Huh? Sigh. Whee!

Distracted. Pray. Tired. Sweet potato mooncake. Almost-accident. Distracted. Replacement class. Fun. Metting. Tired. GHM. Distracted. Crickets. Blur. Coffee. Dance. Planning. Driving. Tired. Pray. Funny note on car. Distracted. Huge red ants. Chicken rice. God answering my cry. 

There. Summary of today. *deep breaths*

Rojak-nya. 

Thursday, September 16, 2010

Throwing thoughts

Good day today. A lot of muscle tired-ness and sweat. Jogging in the morning was good. The cool air, the healthy people? haha. And then dance practice for this sunday. =(  This sunday. 

*breathes in* 

I cannot seem to not be myself. I did try. But i failed. Self-consciousness and the feeling of my lacking ability kicked in.

Usually it excites me to dance. Though i can't do it well, i love it. But something about this dance scares me, makes me wanna crawl under my shell. 

I've never had this tidak apa attitude during a last practice before. God help me. Help me not to focus on myself and what i cannot do. It's hard but to know you're watching me helps. Besides, Jon says this song means to be synchronized with you. 

YOU, and not my dance partner. 

I shall not complain. Paul says to run as if to reach the goal ahead. I just hope i'll be able to do it this weekend. 

Sunday, September 12, 2010

R.E.S.T.

(most pictures by Annora Ong) I don't mean to 'steal' them okay. If you think they're awesome, they're HERS.  







Retreat was awesome. I wasn't satisfied with some things but i'm sure everything happened as God intended it to be. Also, i decided on my definition of REST at that moment : To know God has forgiven and i can let go.  =)

The games were fun. Though the water was murky, shampoo-ing hair outside a bathroom, flour AGAIN. Mess mess but a whole lotta fun. 

Awesome people know how to have fun!

Campers were diverse compared to last year. Interesting. Hopefully these people from everywhere will pull others from all over. The vision Joel had was WOW. It makes me excited to know that more cups will be filled. More and more. 

Water captain ball was FUN! Been too long since i played sports seriously. 2 hours in the pool laughing and splashing was just the best way to spend a non-sunny evening. The cool water, the noise as we scream constantly, Warren's endless diving and the nonsense-ness that go with it was just unexplainable fun. If i could do that every weekend and experience the same joy, i would love to. 

Time flies. Last year i was a 'newbie' and Joyce said that we're seniors this year already. I love CF people lah. I had so much fun. Most of the time, i thought, "Who cares if i had things to find rest in when people around me bring so much overflowing joy??". I did have my upset thoughts and reflections but everything just flies out the window with those people around. I couldn't have asked for a better weekend. I wish camps dont have to be so expensive and we can go more often!! haha  



My mortal and fun night partner and angel were awesome. Well, 'fun' at least. Jenn ming is the most happening mortal ever. Fed him too much chocolate that he had to exercise, muahaha. It was so much fun. Helped balance out since i didn't have the most 'LOVING' angel. haha.  

Fun night



I waited super long for my fun night date lorrr...was the last (not counting the emcees). Well at least i stood under the aircond longer. My Pyjama outfit was hot (as in a jacket,hot).    
Anyways, i didn't expect to have dinner with...
ALVIIIIIIN!!!!
(yeah i said that when i saw him)

His pyjamas was super cute lah..And, as gentleman as always, made me feel like a spoilt girl throughout dinner. I said a lot of "Yes, please", "okay, thank you" and *nodding of head*. My table was fun. Jarren and James had emcees as their 'dates' so the girls were rushing one another to eat. Super funny. When they left to emcee, James started to enjoy eating slower and Jarren had to finish what Chow Ern couldn't...what a scene! Like some movies when wives rush around and the men just lay back. hahahaha. Anyways, alvin signed everything on my checklist though i didnt accomplish everything. I felt bad that i did it all in front of him. hahaha. Good excuse to so it wasn't that embarrassing. phew. Awesome lah..i enjoyed the moment of being served. 

Girl's checklist :
1. Ruffle 2 guy's hair
2. Curtsy
3. Flutter eyelashes
4. Giggle uncontrollably
5. Flip hair and blow kiss

Nonsense right?? and guys got easier stuffs. 

James choong.*smacks forehead*. I felt like a lil' sacrificial lamb that God must be laughing down at. Before camp we were talking about Guardian Angel and he said he doesn't see the purpose or fun in it and that angels were not supposed to do this and that, so i told him that i would pity his mortal and begged him to be nice to whichever girl he gets. And i clapped my hands together and said "Please God, not me lah...don't la don't la" and i told him hopefully i wouldn't get him with lots of pleaseSSSS. 
AND I COULDN'T BELIVE IT. my jaw dropped. He was my angel. Noooooooo!!!! instead of flooding me with nice stuffs, he was just playfully mean saying his angel said to flick my ear 30 times. Thus, i felt like a sacrificial lamb. If it wasn't me, i would really pity the poor girl. sigh. oh well. Too much of being spoilt wouldn't be a good thing yes? (yeah I'm using a defense mechanism). It was fun having to be in his group though, super syok sendiri. Bet he could have done the whole skit on his own and still win first place. Good job lah! 

Berbonding with music session was awesome. I've always enjoyed these. In school, church and camps. Really really enjoyed it. Time just flied too fast and the night was going by too quickly. A camp without awesome musicians and syok sendiri people would be boring. 

Of course, reflection times. Given the instruction to think and reflect. And group sharing. One thing i like about this retreat, though it was only a short 3 days, we spent a lot of time with our groups. Discussions, devotion, games, and more discussion. I think it's the best way to really get to know one another in a short period of time. Sharing thoughts and opinions and praying for one another. That's comfort already. Glad that Jarren was in my group too. Got to catch up with him after all these years. God lets me meet people in interesting ways. He made an effort to come for camp though he only knew 1 0r 2 people. Claps. 
The One fact he remembered about me : A LEFT-EEEE!!!! 


At last.......


Camp commander!!! YOU DA MAN!!!

Camp committee, Good job! It's crazy planning for one but they did it! Woo hoo!!! No committee is ever perfect but God has always something new for everyone.  =) 


P.S. Buy the JELL-O cream!!!! 
To clear pimples

Group JELL-O




Friday, September 3, 2010

Blooper for the day

Mixer was interesting. I guess I should attend ADP's events sometimes just to mingle mingle. 

Spent quite a bit of time trying to figure out the best way to tie a bright orange-yellow-greenish beach skirt. I did it!! My new accomplishment. 

So what nonsense happened at this time of the day? 9pm.

Here, the paraphrased version since i can't remember the exact words.

Choong : Last time, when parking was 3 bucks, i put in a 10 and my change came out in 50 cent coins. 

Me : *laugh laugh laugh* (gets out of car, puts ticket into autopay machine and insert money)

(realized a stupid mistake and turned towards the car)

Me : oh crap!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! aaaaaahhhhh!!!!!!!  *sound of tons of coins dropping in the machine*

Choong : *LAUGHS*

Me : *whine whine whine*

Yup, i do that. Fall for mistakes even when i was JUST told. I now have a HEAVY wallet full of TWELVE 50cent coins. Awesome la lynn. *clap clap*