Sunday, November 28, 2010

Bakar minyak tengah malam

I am going to finish or at least complete 90% of my malaysian studies assignment + public speaking speech for finals before the sun rises. Without coffee. *deep breaths*

Saturday, November 27, 2010

Truth won't Change

Waking up to warmer mornings,

New trends, new rules, new mindsets,

Adjusting to environments,

Having to deal with different experiences,

I fear change.

Observing one's aging process,

The hair loss, wrinkles, and slower movements,

Looking back to moments of regrets,

Not knowing what lies ahead,

I fear time.

But these are all what life is,

It's normal, happens to everyone,

So sometimes...

I fear truth.





Saturday, November 20, 2010

She now drives!!!!

It's the second time Lydia and I are having dim sum for breakfast at the same place for our catching up session. 

After a long day and lack of sleep I wake up to another busy day. Which starts with this friend of mine, giving me encouragement for everything. 

One of the many things i got from her today : "....The only thing or part of you that will hurt, is your Pride". I wondered for awhile, it sounded like pride was a separate part of me. Like it's my pride hurting and not the entire me. Just something that got me today. 

We spent 2 hours talking and sharing and drinking down cup after cup of Jasmine tea. It's such an interesting and comforting feeling. Feels like as if she might be who i might be in future. Sounds freaky eh? But it's somewhat sensible. Things that i go or went through and finding it hard to explain, she understands and explains it in simple language which matches the feelings i had or have. What a substantial conversation we had. About church, psychology, youth, self-esteem, dance, intimidation, church speakers and whatever else under the sun.  

Friday, November 19, 2010

Grinning Friday

I had a fun friday! 

Skipping class for children's day at peter&jane was a wise choice. Definitely. So much fun seeing Again, their amazing and prettiest outfits! Beautiful, colourful dresses with angel wings, some of the girls had. Boys with handsome hairstyles and interesting outfits such as Spiderman and army outfits. Boy, the amount of food there was...fuuuhh. One child's parent brought three boxes of wondermilk cupcakes!!!! and individual ones for the teachers. WAAHHH! And the amount of junk food the children brought home in their party packs were heavenly to them. I will miss them. sigh. 

Nearing the end of school, the children gathered at the assembly hall for games and songs. As i walked there, i heard children singing in unison "...baby baby baby oooohhh, like baby baby baby noooo..." I was pretty surprised. Kindi kiddos singing this song??!! Of all the awesome and educational songs I've heard them sing. hahaha. Kids nowadays eh? 

Ash went back to visit. Soon the teachers were talking about how she was last time and how she's grown....we joined the teachers for a yummy lunch before going home, looking forward to more exciting moments awaiting me!

So yes, i got home and felt very excited. Like a lil' girl awaiting her present. haha. Nicole just got back a week ago! So when everyone came, we did some catching up, sang Su a belated birthday song, had cake and started google-ing and youtube-ing for ideas on make up and hair. haha. There were interesting, impossible, and crazy ideas. We watched a video on how to use a hair straightener to make curls. It looked easy. But we failed. haha. 

Choco and tiramisu!!!! 


Nicole became the guinea pig/lab rat. Sounds mean? well she enjoyed it, i'm sure. =) Get to ban leng!

Sadly, Su and manda had to leave early..*sniff sniff*.

Double eyelid stickers? failed on me. haha. Esther then applied a thicker layer of eyeliner on me. Which turned out, me looking just like her! 

Big big eyes

I love my friends. Oh sho much!! God is awesome! Prom was at a pretty perfect timing. Jas and manda just finished their mocks, esther managed to come after her M'sian studies paper (no like you!), Su just finished SAM and Cole is back from Aus!!! The best part was the preparation. I felt like it was my birthday again. To be so blessed with friends who don't stay nearby to come to my place for hours to do me up for an event they won't even be attending. How i wish i could bring them along and put them in my lil' bag just like Mary Poppins.

So, i got an interesting hairstyle with cold hairspray all over. Esther said my hair was TOO SMOOTH. Such a compliment. haha. There were not enough bobby pins. And the curls didnt turn out the way it should have been. Su and Esther worked on my eyes *blink blink*. Spent 80% of make up time on it. Just the eyes..goodness. Truly is a tedious job but with the artist around, it turned out amazing. Thank you S-ther!!! hehe. 

Lastly, Jas, Esther and Nicole picked out the accessories. Seriously, i didn't need to do anything the whole time! Except for closing my eyes, looking at certain angles, and not blinking.

Oh, God is amazing again because I just found out a day before that Priscilla had BLACK SATIN GLOVES!!!!!! she even dropped by to pass it to me at 8am today. I am So loved. Yes. haha. At least SO much for today. *smiles*

Prom night. Reached pretty late but i wasn't. Phew! and one more thing to thank God for is...dad didn't make a fuss. When i couldn't follow Su home, he said he would send me. I was so glad he didn't say much about going for prom and what i was gonna do there and why i didn't bring a shawl. I guess it's God's grace again, for me to have a good time for the night. 

As always, we took pictures and more pictures. I can't believe that this many of my friends wouldn't be around next year. But I shall not worry about that now. hehe.

Let's see...Being in a long dress wasn't easy. Lifting it up to avoid getting it wet or stepped on and walking nicely. haha. A friend once mentioned about teaching me how to be graceful and poised. Would have been hilarious. Anyways, i did enjoy myself. The music at the end was nice and people dancing in pairs. That's what prom should have, no? The only sad thing was that we started pretty late and the hall cleared out pretty fast when it ended. 

I got home really late. Too late. God, thank you for your grace that daddy didn't lecture me about it and that i got home safe and sound. Thank you for awesome friends who stay so far away but drive me home anyway.

I had a great day and i shall go to bed tonight with a grin on my face, recalling the unforgettable and happy moments i had. All thanks to my Daddy in heaven who loves me and assures me that.................................

          I AM LOVED.


Girls, you know who you are...Thank you sooo much. Your effort, time, energy and love. I could say this all day for days, months and maybe years to come. When we do this again. In future. Yes Jas?? *wink wink*  We Will do more catching up! Soon! 

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

I feel terrible. Temperature up, cough worse, random runny nose and i couldn't sleep still the whole night. Please go away..leave me alone. 

Here i am, waiting for Warren to come over to work on our assignment. Current Progress = 0%. Thank God it's only 2 pages. 

Murphy's Law!! i am not going to keep you in my head today. Its 9 in the morning and i am going to have a productive day. Yesh! 


Monday, November 15, 2010

Monday morning's fun

For once i got to spend time playing with the kiddos at kindergarten. It's the last week of school and so there's nothing much left for me to do and most of them are just finishing their last few pages of their workbooks. Played slapping hand games and told stories. Typical princess stories, where the prince slays the dragon. haha. As always, time flies when you're having fun. The teacher didn't realize we went overtime and had to rush snack period. awwww. 

We went to the playground today!! managed to catch pretty good pictures with good lighting. The sun was up up up! One of the girls zoomed down the slide, jumped off after and shouted "My bum bum is on fire!!" Soon after, one by one they all started saying it. Running around with their hands on their bums.

I enjoyed my time at kindi today. And i found out they have Children's day this Friday. Woohoo! I plan to skip my boring class and go for fun. =)

The rest of my day was not cool. Talk about my speech on Murphy's Law today. The thought of it was annoyingly lingering in my head. My throat wasn't feeling any better (curse those fried sausages!! gah!!). Dad's spicy acar and paprika chicken wasn't helping. All because of friend sausages. Tsk.  

Saturday, November 13, 2010

Celebrate today! The day we learnt our every move right, done choreographing Ash's candy cane dance and pressies dance. Such a relief. Relief. We even video-ed Chat's part to be sent to her. All the surpressed laugher looks on camera. Shucks. (Chat, although you don't read this, i hope you appreciate the embarrassment.haha). The 5+ hours spent in church today was joyfully productive. 

Woo hoo!! Thank you God for a good and cheerful time of practice. More to come!

Friday, November 12, 2010

Joy of being a blessing

CF-ers blessed people around campus with balloons today! I'm glad it turned out awesome. We didn't give food this year but i'm glad we didn't. Balloons, coloured markers and smiley faces are the best. 

This morning, i experienced what it's like to have something valuable that doesn't belong to me and that I had the choice whether i should keep it or not. Had the weirdest feeling. My first thought was that someone had dropped it and I'll hang on to it until someone calls. After awhile, I thought of times when phones have been reported missing and when someone dials the number, it just goes into voicemail. Pretty easy job. Just shut the phone off, and there you have it. A new phone.

I'm glad i got to be someone's saviour today. And i'm glad i decided to wear the CF tee. Not sure if she noticed but if she did, praise God!! She sounded like the happiest and most grateful stranger. I wish I had balloons with me then.

I feel good today. Started off with a rainy morning. Got to college, turned off the engine, ate my lil bun and studied in the car while the air was cool. So nice that i decided to sleep for half an hour before getting onto the bus and off to class. mmmm. 

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

*Punches the invisible punch bag* 

Oh world, i shall put you aside for awhile. 

*Drowned in music*

Monday, November 8, 2010

A Visitor's Trust

Family friends come to visit. Everyone is at the living room having a conversation about how everyone's been and catching up. Outside, the mother honks to let those at home know of her return and that the car outside needs to be moved for her to drive in.

The friend (husband) stands up, takes out his car keys from his pocket and hands it to the host's eldest daughter saying "Nah, go move the car. Very easy wan". 

Such an shocking moment she felt, and hopeful that somehow others will give her the same trust she received that day. 

Sunday, November 7, 2010

"Fly fly" *swish swish* and a bomb for dinnah

Today i bought my first,

Long dress!!!!! (which shall not be revealed yet!)

My sister actually went scouting with me. Though her taste of dresses are no where near mine. For now. =)  I'm grateful that I didn't have to go alone and talk to myself while trying on dresses.

Initially wanted to get a short one since it wouldn't look too formal. But after trying on one and seeing that the price was reasonable, i started contemplating. I dislike such times when i have to make decisions. Approach-approach conflict situation. And so i consulted three wise men. No, actually women. 

I went back to the store in the evening with mum's friend and daughter since she was looking for a long dress. I just happen to find the best price for one just yesterday!  

Shopping is really really hard. Most of the time. Since i confirmed my decision on getting a long dress, there were more decisions to make. WHICH one. Ash was fixed on me getting the one i tried on yesterday while mum and i had doubts. Nice toga design, but certain angle of it made me look pregnant. Seriously. My mum and friend agreed too okay? Second reason, the shade of blue wasn't That appealing. Sister never gave up. haha. Oh well, her day will come. =) Another best part of my dress is that it doesn't need any altering! I usually turn away from long dresses because they will just get stepped on and sweep the floor when i get in it. Without a doubt.*smiles*

Her face says "Get THIS one. You better"

Other than the joy of getting my dress, i had a sumptuous, awesome, indulging dinner at Saujana Resort Hotel. Usually, my family goes there with friends for supper and i order a big cup of hot chocolate. mmmm. This time, we got to go there for dinner! dad's friend had discounts and he knew the people there so we had a great time. I ordered a RM50 (half price after discount) grilled salmon with lemon+butter sauce. I didn't expect it to be small piece on such a huge plate but that just meant, MORE space for dessert!!!!

Took the whole plate on purpose. tsk tsk tsk. haha

Salivating??

The dessert were buffet style so i prepared a plate full before the main dishes came. Talk about temptation under my nose, an arm's length away. To make it worse, mum brought fruits with melted chocolate. I can't believe i didn't notice the chocolate fountain! Terrible i tell you. After our main dish, sister and I were fascinating ourselves with putting a stick through marshmallows and fruits and letting chocolate flow onto it. Oooohh! that was just awesome. The cakes were awesome. If i had more space in my tummy, i would have gone for ice cream with chocolate and raisin toppings. Really thankful for my dinner.

 


Mum's Red Snapper

Lighted tree trunks. Nice. 

God, thank you for a dress that's under my budget. It doesn't need any alterations too! I am a happy girl. While reading Sue Jane's devo book that day, thank You for the assurance that you do bless your children with material stuff just as any parent would and that asking for such things isn't a terrible thing. Thank You for my sister who didn't complain yesterday. Thank You for blessing my family with friends who provide even for a meal! . I bet dinner costed a bomb if it weren't for the discounts. I'm overjoyed today! Love you!



Wednesday, November 3, 2010

Happy day!

It's Su Yi's and Charity's birthday!!!! and the day for prom dress shopping!!! 

What a day. Though i DIDN'T get my dress, i had fun climbing up many different looking(after so many, you just take notice) flights of stairs, had 'pink day' BR ice-cream for the first time, time with friends and exercise.  

Manda's new hairstyle!!! Didn't take pictures of the ice cream. Too caught up in eating it.

Bangsar lunch hour traffic is scary. Crossing roads with cars from different lanes is scary. How i parked today was scary *phew!*.

I should have taken pictures of the stairs we climbed today. Interesting, boring, happy, yucky and normal. haha. Jasmine did the bell ringing for every boutique we went to. Amanda popped in and out of the fitting room to amuse me. When Warren, Marivin and James joined us, they just made the atmosphere louder. Okay they provided entertainment anyways. 

So yeah, i didn't get a dress. Didn't even shortlist any. Most of them were too 'over the top', too bodily tight that i actually had to walk like a penguin, over budget and mainly tube dresses. It was fun trying stuff i would never have thought of wearing (that's the fun of window shopping!!!). And it's my first time walking all over that area. For a dress. heh. 

I need to do more searching. Not satisfied. I got home and tried to think of people who would go on this adventure with me, but i couldn't think of anyone. Jas and Manda did an awesome job today but it was tiring too, especially right after their exams. I've already asked too much of them. And so i thought and thought...there just wasn't anyone coming to mind. Quite sad eh? hehe. Can't ask my mum cos there'll be a lot of walking and running here and there. 

Finally(while watching Chinese drama), i decided on the girl next to me. YES, I am pulling my sister along with me. Hopefully, with the green light from mummy. Just needed someone who would 'tolerate' or be patient with me throughout. hehe. Well, she was smart enough to ask for her side of the deal. Oh well. At least i get someone to tag along without complaining. Even if she does, i can bully her. haha. The joy of having a younger sister.  Thank You Jesus!!! *smiles*

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

Chee woh turns 22!!!!!


Sorry i can't afford an iphone, ipad, korean girls, BMWs, FerrariS, watches that are more expensive then my sem fees, and whatever else you want. But yes, I'll 'PRAY' you get some korean girl lah, if it's God's will. I doubt it'll be Yu Ri though. =D 

Anyways, have a good one in UK and though you're studying very very hard i'm sure you have your source of syok-ness lah. 

Hillary Clinton @ International Islam University Malaysia. What an experience.  =)  


Monday, November 1, 2010

Passion, Inspiration, Motivation

I have none. Not a clear one at least.      Seriously. 

As i grow older, i hear more and more of such things. A friend of mine has excitedly decided to take a couple of months off from studies to do music. Another is planning to travel to Africa to reach out. Then there are some who plan to use their field of study to serve in missions. 

I think about my aunts who have all been to top universities and when they ask me about my plans, i try to think of the words to say, like trying to fill in a resume.

I'm tired of personality tests, tired of career counseling and people asking me what my interests are. I just want to Know. 

God gave me a piece of my future which i cannot seem to find where it fits. Yes, it's pretty awesome, though i wish it was something i could work on right now. I probably have lil' proximal goals but a vague distant goal. My mind is full of what ifs.  

Oh well, just thoughts. Not emo-ing. = P


I like this, and i wish the key to life was that easy.


What Faith Can Do by Kutless

Everybody falls sometimes
Gotta find the strength to rise
From the ashes and make a new beginning
Anyone can feel the ache
You think it’s more than you can take
But you're stronger, stronger than you know
Don’t you give up now
The sun will soon be shining
You gotta face the clouds
To find the silver lining

I’ve seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn’t ever end
Even when the sky is falling
I’ve seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That’s what faith can do

It doesn’t matter what you’ve heard
Impossible is not a word
It’s just a reason for someone not to try
Everybody’s scared to death
When they decide to take that step
Out on the water
It’ll be alright
Life is so much more
Than what your eyes are seeing
You will find your way
If you keep believing

Overcome the odds, You don't have a chance
(That’s what faith can do)
When the world says you can’t
It’ll tell you that you can!