*heartbeat*

I want someone to take me somewhere I can breath in deeply and just sit in silence to ponder about my life and what I wanna do about it. Even if I don't return with a solution.

I want someone to take me to a place where there's no one else around to scream and cry whatever I need to let go.

I wish I could have the short period in the mornings to let it out and then carry on with life so amazing, just like Morrie did.

I hope to someday.

*continues day dreaming*

Cheers to a night of feasting!

BEFORE CNY. Apa macam.

Homemade meatballs!

After dinner, there were brownies and cookies made by Ash and Cate. After dessert, then came mini Magnums and finally, durians.

Peanut butter cookies!

Baking ladies!

Ice-cream!!!

A friend said that being fat is a blessing. Pfft. No way.

Of course there was more than food. The kiddos spent 4hours in the pool. All the prune-y fingers! They did countless jumps for the camera and splashed water at one another though they each had their goggles on. Most of the time. haha. Took some pictures with the lil' cousins and gave goodbye hugs and kisses before they get too old for them. =) I had a great time. Pity I didn't go to Langkawi but I do hope I'll be able to visit them soon.

Resolution : LEARN how to make decisions.

God beats the time rests for us

Today's devo from Jon

Classics: Streams in the Desert

Music and the Rest by Mrs. Charles E. Cowman.


"Into a desert place apart" (Matt. 14:13).

"There is no music in a rest, but there is the making of music in it." In our whole life-melody the music is broken off here and there by "rests," and we foolishly think we have come to the end of the tune. God sends a time of forced leisure, sickness, disappointed plans, frustrated efforts, and makes a sudden pause in the choral hymn of our lives; and we lament that our voices must be silent, and our part missing in the music which ever goes up to the ear of the Creator. How does the musician read the "rest"? See him beat the time with unvarying count, and catch up the next note true and steady, as if no breaking place had come between.

Not without design does God write the music of our lives. Be it ours to learn the tune, and not be dismayed at the "rests." They are not to be slurred over, not to be omitted, not to destroy the melody, not to change the keynote. If we look up, God Himself will beat the time for us. With the eye on Him, we shall strike the next note full and clear. If we sadly say to ourselves, "There is no music in a 'rest,'" let us not forget "there is the making of music in it." The making of music is often a slow and painful process in this life. How patiently God works to teach us! How long He waits for us to learn the lesson! --Ruskin

"Called aside--
From the glad working of thy busy life,
From the world's ceaseless stir of care and strife,
Into the shade and stillness by thy Heavenly Guide
For a brief space thou hast been called aside.

"Called aside--
Perhaps into a desert garden dim;
And yet not alone, when thou hast been with Him,
And heard His voice in sweetest accents say:
'Child, wilt thou not with Me this still hour stay?'

"Called aside--
In hidden paths with Christ thy Lord to tread,
Deeper to drink at the sweet Fountainhead,
Closer in fellowship with Him to roam,
Nearer, perchance, to feel thy Heavenly Home.

"Called aside--
Oh, knowledge deeper grows with Him alone;
In secret of His deeper love is shown,
And learnt in many an hour of dark distress
Some rare, sweet lesson of His tenderness.

"Called aside--
We thank thee for the stillness and the shade;
We thank Thee for the hidden paths Thy love hath made,
And, so that we have wept and watched with Thee,
We thank Thee for our dark Gethsemane.

"Called aside--
Oh, restful thought--He doeth all things well;
Oh, blessed sense, with Christ alone to dwell;
So in the shadow of Thy cross to hide,
We thank Thee, Lord, to have been called aside."

http://www.backtothebible.org/index.php/devotions/classics/charles_cowman.html

Manda turns 20!!!

What a great night! Didn't think I would have such a great time considering it was just a couple of hours and without a sleepover.

The food, as always, was sooo good. From starters to huge prawns with yummy pasta, shepherds pie (without fail!), more pasta and pizza. Dessert! Apple and pear crumble with ICE-CREAM and for my first time, Durian birthday cake! woo hoo!!

The best part was the Flying Lanterns!!!! The feel was just amazing. If it were like Tangled, that'll be the ultimate, awesome, most memorable sight! I wanna stock 'em up!

Total pictures taken : 492. And 1 short clip of flying lanterns. whee!

All I saw outside was Fog

I am back from another tiring and refreshing retreat. And today's devo has reminded me....

There's responsibility up ahead and coming my way. (John 21:15-19)

Planning hours were long. Sometimes going around in circles, sometimes spending time on redundant issues and side tracking, oh so often. And we berbond through this.

Talk about not stepping outdoors for days.

And having too much food. For every meal.

Praying for 2 hours+ for everyone amazed me.

Tipping toe in the kitchen while helping to cook, in the bathroom and bedroom because of the icy floor.

Pictionary cards and Cranium was a great time of laughter. I shall get meself a deck of those!

Though the planning hours were tiring and long, the sharing, laughter, care and encouragements made my day.

God's still working. With this committee, with my portfolio and with the CF as a whole.

Just wish I knew how.

The journey down was breath taking! Enjoyed and took in the freezing air of Genting before coming back to the warm, polluted and stuffy air. hahaha

New tongue!

I learned ABC in Spanish!! *claps claps*

Jan Jan Jan

Birthdates! O_O

"I knew it"

Intuition can be pretty accurate sometimes. It's amazing. I think having a feeling of what's about to happen helps people prepare for the worst.

Time heals all wounds. *pause and thinks*...And God does things in His timing.

I so knew it. And to finally see and accept what I expected to come feels somewhat a relief to me.

I'm glad it's out. God, I love You. Thank you for dealing with the situation. Though I've been doing my best, I can now really really love with total sincerity.

It's a new year!!!! A total different one from the last I can tell. haha. I'm growing up. *sniffs*

Se-remban Siew Pau

What a trip! And I miss it already. The interesting house we stayed in, the comfy bed, the small bathroom, the awesome cool breeze, the sweet lil' 2 year old cousin of Warren, the food, the swimming, night movies in bed and everything else I did there. I think my body doesn't need as much sleep nowadays which I doubt is a good thing.

Now I wanna go back. haha. I shall....hopefully. =)