My first cheque is here!! Though it wasn't the exact amount said but it's mine!!! Wheeeee!!!!
Shopping here i come! It's been too long, i finally Finally get stuffs I've been wanting.
*kisses the cheque repeatedly*
*jumps around*
Thank you God for such joy this week!!!! Thank you for a convenient place to work at. I love you!!
"Miss Lynette, take me take me!"
Never seen him so cute
From the top, i like
"Smile smile??"
Handsome boiii!! *ruffles hair*
Leng lui Gangster mou??
Unfortunately, it's Nayo's last day in this kindi. The most dressed up one today. She'll pass for the youngest air hostess. I'll miss her so much. Fair little princess of K1 Violet.
Before
After
Caught on camera!!! "aiyah, this is sooo cute lah"
Thank God for a somewhat fun time during public speaking class too.
And, i had McD alone today while reading a book. Awesome stuff by Lee Strobel. Very down to earth.
Until today i struggle. I have always thought i mix well with people, thought i would be comfortable as long as people were around me. But i became unsure of that since i started college. I take pictures with friends, go out for lunches, talk about random stuff, attend birthday celebrations, get rides home but i still feel as though i don't know anything about them. Sem after sem, things change. I pretend like it's all a part of growing and time will heal this but it hasn't. I still go to college wondering who i'm gonna sit with in class, wondering who to teman me. How come my friends mix around and talk like they've seen each other every other day while i'm sitting there putting pieces of their conversations together and asking "Who? Why? When? What?". Suddenly i think, maybe i'm an introvert since i'm only Me in certain situations. I want to expressive, i want to be REAL. Yes, that's the word....but it seems like i'm going against who i am. I want to tell my friends stuff i see about them. I want to be expressive, but it's hard...i admire those who are like that, so much. I'd think, if i were to be REAL in my everyday life i would have gotten so many messages across and feelings expressed.
I started thinking today, is it my faith? is it because i hold on to something different then them i just cannot connect. If i didn't have this faith i would probably be very liberal and carefree which is how i see many of my friends are. Except for those with boyfriends or girlfriends, they don't really seem to worry about company. Is this awkward connection due to times when i wince because of their ungodly actions? If Godly people i know can be close to unbelievers and enjoy times together, why is it so hard for me? I hide in my lil' shell like a self-defense mechanism when i'm around them. WHY why why??? i'm frustrated with myself. It's been at least 2 years!!! For goodness sakes.....what's the matter laaa? nonsense nonsense nonsense.
*exhales*
That was good. Release!!!
Chee woh!
The card i gave was pretty lousy and i didn't treat you like a king, sorry. So i shall dedicate a whole post to you at least, okay?
To elaborate on what i wrote, yes i wouldn't have gone to so many places to see all kinds of stuff if i didn't know you. Pretty cool outings lo..especially the one where we went to see car stuff...i never would have bothered to go see tires, air filters and all that sorta stuff. haha. Also, thank you for bringing lunch during those boring and sesat hours at the driving school. Really really appreciate that. Thank you for the funny card to wish me all the best for my first day of college. It's in my room to remind me how anxious i felt. haha. And the elephant thingy, was for the paintball incident if i'm not wrong. awwww. =) And and and, for the tub of yummy-delicious ice cream for my birthday and an interesting theology session with Joshua. What i get for turning 19 eh? =p Awesome la both of you. See? you brought sooo many interesting events into my life. Happy anot? compliment you...hehe. Finally, congrats on meeting your goal to drive at......i forgot. hehe.
Oh, turns out...i won't be doing bio this sem due to schedule clashes. Most probably the next one in january if it's offered. Will let you know and bombard you with questions IF i really don't get it alright? hehe.
Hope Belfast treats you well!!! must update me on stuff you do there! And maybe, just Maybe get to drive a Porsche too?? That, i might pray for you la, not the other one...hahaha. Take super alot of pictures with your new toy alright? And will there be snow and autumn leaves? pictures pictures!! Will keep you in prayers anyways...be a goood med Student!!!! *smiles*.
Will miss you lah...no 'manual driver who speeds' to bring me to random places to nonsense around for a year dy....sorry i wasn't there to see you off. "Chee woh isn't coming back here so i don't have transport to the airport". Pretty reasonable statement right? haha.
See you in a year's time!!! Take care! =)
Sincerely,
Penguin. (guess this is the one thing that you'll remember me for anyway...pfft)
My last day today. That was fast.
I'm gonna miss those kiddos lots. No matter how naughty they are, no matter how much they don't want to do their work, they are just adorable.
I'll miss...
Told her to open her eyes big big and voila!
Charisse, even if she doesn't talk much, she shows affection by clinging onto my leg like a lil' puppy and laughs the hardest and loudest.
Nayo, the prettiest princess of the class who poses excessively for the camera.
Eve, who does such odd acts and sounds and wishes me "Goodbye miss Alynette" loudly before getting into the car. Demands i call her Eevee eevee
Bastien, handsome lil' boy who is cheery and has lil' eyes which closes when he smiles.
Koh li sheng, the earliest to class and helps his friends, even to wash hands.
Sarah, sweet girl who takes time to talk about stuff and thanked me again and again for her birthday present
Soong Wenn, always the last to arrive to class and has her own high pitched voice.
Andrew Rahul, randomly holds my hand and the only boy who asked me to lift him up high.
Joo Shen, too quick for me to get his attention unless to sharpen his colour pencils.
Neisha, the 'big sister' in the class and behaves in a proper manner.
Melissa, the popular, fair-skinned, self-composed and dominant one in future.
Shu li, cute and chubby. Her face goes with her pretty hats.
Yi yi, the girl who smiles lots with her 2 bunny teeth missing.
Jeremy, quiet, slow and prevents eye contact. The boy who would rather write the letter again to make it look nicer.
Tze Ray, who eats breakfast in the car every morning and can be a bit of a bully.
Alden, gentle, mature and intelligent boy who greets me every morning.
Adrienne, the girl with the bright red strawberry bag.
Joshua, the most difficult but sociable.
Ms. Serene, the teacher i helped and spoke Cantonese with.
I wish i could have video recorded the scene of today when i got sweaty hugs from them. Wasn't the best goodbye as it was still during school hours but i'm glad i got the time to snap a few pictures. Thank God for the opportunity. I miss all of them already. Of all the days i've been there, today was the day i got to play and make noise with them the most.
hahaha...did you imagine my expression doing that?? ah well..i didn't do it alright? But he is THE MAN for the night!!! wooooo!!
He hit me with this sentence he told us to pray,
"GOD, give me MALAYSIA, or I DIE"
It was hard repeating those words..had a deep thought about it before i slept too. I didn't know how to react as i stood there with so many people. Even as i sat between a friend from church and his dad, i got self-conscious and scared, scared to admit my feelings. Scared to death i wouldn't be able to do what he just said. I felt the fire and passion in him, the longing for everyone he speaks to receive the fire he has. How i wish i did too, but i still have fear in me.
Jaeson is so hyped for God. His fired up talk about God using the Asian countries and showing all his experiences in the video was just, mind blowing. I didn't know there were Tons of people in Taiwan, Hong Kong, Indonesia, Singapore, Korea and other Asian countries who were Crazy about Jesus. People is Seoul are up at 4am in the morning to celebrate Easter. WHAT IS THAT WEI?!!! The crowd wasn't in cell groups but were like ants gathered together out in the open as i watched through the camera view. It was amazing. There were many times during the movie where i felt my goosebumps come up.
Throughout his closing message, i had a thought about how awesome God is to have used a youth like him. A previous gangster, rebellious child to his parents and drug abuser became this God-fearing man. I wish i could sit down with him and listen to his experiences and adventures around the world. I bet there's too many people doing that. hah. He's like another Daniel Ross. Just more, Asian. haha. I want to spend days listening to what were his experiences. Such dreams are a little unrealistic.
1040. EVERYONE HAS TO WATCH IT. EVERYONE.
Our homework given was to Pray, Go, Send and Mobilize. I thought about them. To pray is 'easy'. Then i jumped to mobilize, to bring it to CF and church and people around me. But when it came to Send and Go, that gave me fear. I would need to be equipped to 'send' and brave to 'go'. *deep breaths*. You can't read my thoughts so.. haha.
I'm glad i went. Dad's friend randomly called me up cos she heard he is an awesome youth speaker and Handsome (her husband shouts in the background). haha. I felt bad cos i canceled plans to have dance practice in church. I guess at the end of the day, thank God i didn't miss it. Bought his book. Sadly my holidays are ending...i sooo wanna read it. I might i might.
At the end of the event, he sang one of his songs called LOVE. He can rap pretty well. GREAT song. People who cant remember 1 Corinthians 13, this would definitely be of help. This song is just is about love, kau kau saturated.
Now Hollywood wants to make you think they know what love is.
But I'm a tell you what true love is.
Love is not what you see in the movies.
Its not the ecstasy, its not what you see in that scene
you know what I mean? I'm telling you right now, true love is sacrifice.
Love is thinking about others before you think about yourself
Love is selfless not selfish. Love is God and God is love.
Love is when you lay down your life for another
Whether for your brother, your mother, your father or your sister
Its even laying down your life for your enemies,
That's unthinkable, but think about that
Love is true
Think.
I'll put you in front of me
So everybody can see
My love, this is my love
I know that I'll be alright
As long as you are my guide
My love, this is my love
Love is patient, love is kind.
It does not envy, it does not boast
It is not proud. Love is not rude, it is not self-seeking
It is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs
You see love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, it always perseveres
Love never fails. Love is everlasting
Its eternal, it goes on and on, it goes beyond time
Love is the only thing that will last when you die
But ask the question why? Do you have love?
I'll put you in front of me
So everybody can see
My love, this is my love
I know that I'll be alright
As long as you are my guide
My love, this is my love
There is no greater love than this than he who lays down his life for his friends
Now are you willing to lay down your life for your friends?
You're probably willing to lay down your life for your mother
your father, or your best friends
But are you willing to lay down your life for even those that hate you?
I'm going to tell you who did that
The definition of love is Jesus Christ. He is love
The nails in his hands, the thorns in his brow
Hanging on a cross for your sin my sins
That is love he died for you and me while we still hated him
That is love
God is true love, and if you don't know this love
Now is the time to know, perfect love
I'll put you in front of me
So everybody can see
My love, this is my love
I know that I'll be alright
As long as you are my guide
My love, this is my love
Another inspiring, boosting session I've had. Thinking about what HY's husband said about the national anthem being a worship song flipped my thoughts that day. Malaysia. Malaysia. How do i start loving you sincerely?
"Don't ask God what your purpose is, but ask Him what can you do in what he has already started, in your generation". -Jaeson Ma-
