All gone to WASTE?

So today was second day of babysitting. Or supposedly.
Phone had no line since 3pm and I thought it would just come back when I got home. But it didn't. So I drove out earlier today, looking forward to a good evening. Then came the JAM. My first jam in perth. And it was pretty bad. Thank God it only lasted about 15-20min but it was tiring, driving a manual car. Anyway...I drove, petrol light started blinking!!! I prayed that I would be able to get home later.

Then the worst came. I decided to restart my phone. The line came back and so did a SMS. And it showed a msg sent about 3pm-ish saying that I didn't need to babysit tonight. Talk about devastated, frustrated and regretful. My engine died and I just sat in the car, thinking how stupid I was to not restart my phone earlier. =(

So I drove home, glad the petrol light wasn't blinking and glad there was no traffic. But with a worry. So much regret. What am I gonna tell my parents?! Yesterday I left an hour earlier because her dad came home early and dad said it was a waste of petrol going all the way there. sigh. I'm so upset now. And with the assignments piling up. My mind is so not at rest. How do I take things one at a time like thissssss.....

I'm done.

As I listened to boyce avenue's acoustic covers today I've realized even more how much I miss 'wasting time' on my piano or strumming a guitar to my own way. I miss playing a string of chords 'just because it sounds beautiful' and I miss having my thoughts run about as I play melodies that just go on and on on the keys of my piano. Sure they're not at a level of amazing or perfect but that's just how I like to spend my alone time. Just bumming with sounds that my mind and heart creates. Not bothered about people's expectations of me or rehearsing over and over again a piece I cannot perfect as I panic and get frustrated when I play the same mistakes repeatedly.

A friend posted about a note on how she's been an amazing blessing being a volunteer to teach music to Sudanese children who want to play music so badly. Even if there was just one student,that made her day. And it got me thinking..."lynn, you don't have to be who people expect you to be even if its out of their good intentions for you". There's a reason I'm doing what I'm doing and yes it is going to be tough and the competition out there is so great and 'everyone's doing it nowadays' BUT, there's a God out there who will open the Right door for me.

Uni starts next week!!!!! Year 3 here I come. *deep breaths*

Day for love?

Just great. I shall remember today as the day I woke up with cramps, scrambling around looking for my uphamol pill. =( Not cool.

Alone again, naturally

Yes, she was right. I am lonely. Just sometimes. But it's true.

This song is a good reminder that when all is not around me, Jesus is.

I'm so tired of politics and all this bad news
I'm so tired of chasing the moment instead of chasing You
I let the World wear me down, I'm desensitized

Jesus keep my heart alive, keep my heart alive
Only You can save me from a world that's breaking right before my eyes
Keep my heart alive

Take these empty "hallelujahs", and fill my lungs again
'Cause I want to sing, and I want to mean it
I want to feel again
And let the world hear the sound of something divine
Jesus keep my heart alive
Keep my heart alive
Only You can save me when my world is breaking right before my eyes

Jesus keep my heart alive
Keep my heart alive
Only You can save me when my hope is fading, and I'm losing the fight

And when the world wears me down,
You're my lifeline
You keep my heart alive

There's just so many WHYs in life that cannot be answered. Or just answers we don't wanna hear. Which is why, faith is truly comforting.

Goodbye, Janice. And may you now have the full ability to dance your heart out in heaven.

Today, I challenge myself to Josh McDowell's 1 year devo plan on my touchscreen phone.

I very happening

Busy busy meeting up with people, christmas presentation, James' MV and packing (or about to).

Today was awesome. Started off with a morning 40mins walk with Deb at Kiara park. Talking and panting at the same time wasn't easy. But good stuff! especially since dance ended last week.

Also, managed to catch lunch with Jas last minute! Was such a great time. Waited half an hour for her to find a parking and then spent time eating fried chicken with our hands while we talk about life, nonsense and everything else. Then, we went shopping for her grandad's present and finally grocery shopping. Hilarious. Took a couple of minutes deciding on which beef to get, making fun of food brands and lastly when we went to pay......express counter was for 8 items and below. How many she had? 10. Ten. So, I took the 2 lightest stuff. The herbs. =.= and we paid separately.
Then there was this guy behind us holding to 2 coconuts in his hands. Oh that was funny.

Dance practice went well too. Oh the beautiful lights!!! I pulled a muscle on my shoulder and I hope it'll heal before Saturday. My last performance here. *sighs*

I love today. Though the sky was gloomy, my day felt well spent.