Birthday and Tragedy

I have 2 feelings at about the same moment. Joy wishing a friend a great birthday on skype and speechless-goosebump feeling when i heard someone i knew passed away tragically. 

Let's deal with the sad part first. Warren told me the news and i was shocked. Just couldn't believe it. I dare not imagine the scenario. I remember when i heard a similar news last year, it hit me so unexpectedly that i didn't have words to say. Why did people i know have to die? (its so human to think this way though life and death aren't in our control). I find it so hard to empathize with people when it comes to this. Things happen so suddenly, people start sharing their regrets and lend whatever help they can. Oh man, it's so unbelievable. =(

http://pressrepublican.com/0100_news/x1560863425/Hit-and-run-driver-identified

God, i don't know what to say....I pray you give his parents Strength to go on LIVING. Let them not wake up and go to bed everyday feeling such deep sorrow. Be their Hope. Amen.

Yes, so the better part for last. Almost forgot a friend's birthday until i got home and realized the date. (times when i don't write notes in my notebook, i tend to not be aware of the date). Sorry!  

So, he is away from home and has made skype calls on his 18th birthday. haha. Blessed birthday Wee yen!!! I was half past midnight and you Tried to stay awake. Awww. Many more surprises coming your way I'm sure! God will bless you in so many awesome ways i know it. 

Such fun!!

Woke up, drove to college, parked, hopped into victor's car and to SMSS we go!!!  (skipping computer class isn't so bad. hehe)

School still feels sorta like home. Aunty Molly's yummy tom yam bi hun. Still as sour, still the same colour. hehe. Food at college burns money. 

Teachers. I miss. 

So what did the four of us do?

BUM.

Pong struggled with the lock to the sports complex but it didn't budge. Half an hour. Then he settled for football. Matt, victor and i..set on the 'bleachers'. Guitar and camera and shouts of "BALL!!". Watched the girls do nothing cos they had no part of the beautiful FAKE GRASS field. Gosh it's so nice to see it green and not desert-looking. haha. 

When the sun came up, we moved to the hall. Never thought of bumming there. Weird. So we played emo music while victor took his 1 hour nap. The coolness of the aircond and the sound of the piano that stayed in the hall. Relaxing. 

Went to eat at a different chilli pan mee shop. Yum yum yum. Burn pocket some more. But food is good. With friends, even more fun. 

Thank you victor for driving meeeee!!! 

No turning back

*deep breaths*

Not mine, but Your will be done. You know what's best for me.  =)

STUPID GIRL. 

What should I do??

I hate it when it is my fault. I hate it when everyone is dragged down because of me. I hate it when this happens because of my own carelessness and mistake. 

SHAME.ON.ME

Heard a *thump* sound, and when i turned, i saw a girl a few feet away kneeling down to pick up her books. I saw a guy next to me who turned back too. 

And i feel really small now. Why didn't i go to her and help her? The whole time,i was thinking "Does she need help? She's picking them up so if she stands about now then she's okay". When i looked back at her, that thought played in my mind over and over and over. Somehow 'hoping' my thoughts of sympathy will help her get on her feet. Nonsense!!!! I deserve a smack on my head. 

I wish i could turn back time a couple of hours and do what my heart told me to. 

God, i'm sorry. There was an opportunity and i blew it. 

The day i decided to not feel spoilt

RapidKL, fail la you.

Don't say i didn't give you a chance to prove yourself.