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Busy busy meeting up with people, christmas presentation, James' MV and packing (or about to).

Today was awesome. Started off with a morning 40mins walk with Deb at Kiara park. Talking and panting at the same time wasn't easy. But good stuff! especially since dance ended last week.

Also, managed to catch lunch with Jas last minute! Was such a great time. Waited half an hour for her to find a parking and then spent time eating fried chicken with our hands while we talk about life, nonsense and everything else. Then, we went shopping for her grandad's present and finally grocery shopping. Hilarious. Took a couple of minutes deciding on which beef to get, making fun of food brands and lastly when we went to pay......express counter was for 8 items and below. How many she had? 10. Ten. So, I took the 2 lightest stuff. The herbs. =.= and we paid separately.
Then there was this guy behind us holding to 2 coconuts in his hands. Oh that was funny.

Dance practice went well too. Oh the beautiful lights!!! I pulled a muscle on my shoulder and I hope it'll heal before Saturday. My last performance here. *sighs*

I love today. Though the sky was gloomy, my day felt well spent.

I can't study when I cry.
I can't rub my wet eyes when I have contacts on.

God. If you don't open a door for me now, I'm gonna start loosing it.

Updates!

Today I had my first bye byes. The last CF meeting. Hmm...I've so much to reflect on, which I will do after finals. Today was like every other meeting but with more goodbyes. Those graduating and leaving overseas got hand decorated cups! So touching *sniffs*.

Also, met up with a friend I have been planning to. Hearing how God has planned everything for her seemed so unbelievable. As I sat there for a couple of minutes just amazed, there I was partly worrying about me. Where was my miracle? at the 11th hour again? Where was the assurance that she got? We both shared our parts and agreed that the annoying and troubling part was WAITING. Waiting for answers, confirmation and on God.
*exhales* my heart is so not at ease. Daily I get reminders and emails about this from mum and dad and I just don't know what to do. I feel like flying to aus right now and march to Curtin to get answers myself. =(

Putting all that aside, I was a great day. Dim sum & berbonding with Esther, being there for the last CF for the year.

Lots more to do! (and now I shall go back to studying)

MS. GRUMPY

I feel terrible. Especially this past week. I'm pissed at people for the smallest reasons. Pissed at technology, pissed at people nagging, pissed at not understanding what I'm studying, pissed at thinking of apologizing, pissed at myself for getting ticked off so easily.

SIGH.

Bye bye kiddos

Super chun outfit!

Friday was the last day of work at Peter & Jane. Celebrating children's day with them made my day. Once again, the pretty, interesting and smart costumes and......FOOD. There were cakes, cupcakes, chocolates, cookies and junk food everywhere. Oh how I miss celebrating children's day in primary school. haha.

Really gonna miss them. So much. It's kinda sad to know that they might forget me. When I visit next year, there will be new faces and faces who are no longer there. It is sad. Will miss those who are moving on to primary school.

The 'superstar' in nursery

The boy with gorgeous eyes and brings fruit to school everyday

Perceptions, perceptions.

Few things I learnt in CF today :
-God does what is best for His church. If anyone stood out like gangrene, they will be rid off like Ananias and Sapphira.

And everything came down to this amazing truth....

Judgement always comes hand in hand with Love.

....that God judges in love, and His love is just.

Love & Redemption

Redeeming Love.

Another beautiful, captivating, heart-pounding novel.

The word 'Love'. What meaning does it carry, or is it a foul word?. The disgusting past people carry like ‘old baggage’ everywhere they go. Perceptions on others and the bitterness people carry due to unknowingly forming judgments. The beauty of knowing God forgives and will never forsake his children. The terrible feeling of guilt acting as though nothing had happened. Accepting another’s judgment, believing the shame belongs. Once like this, always like this. The feeling of unworthy-ness to receive unconditional love from another. The feeling of life and warmth when someone brushes on one’s skin instead of being numb to touch. Knowing the importance of being loved. A love that comes with sacrifice and not pride. To believe that God works through anyone. And to also know that God is a jealous God. To know my identity in Him and not wrap myself around what others say about me behind my back.

My loving father, I pray that you guard my heart as how I read about the character Francine Rivers wrote in her novel.

I want to be beautiful

Make you stand in awe

Look inside my heart and be amazed

I want to hear you say

Who I am is quite enough

Just wanna be worthy of love and BEAUTIFUL.

-Beautiful by Bethany Dilon-