Alone again, naturally

Yes, she was right. I am lonely. Just sometimes. But it's true.

This song is a good reminder that when all is not around me, Jesus is.

I'm so tired of politics and all this bad news
I'm so tired of chasing the moment instead of chasing You
I let the World wear me down, I'm desensitized

Jesus keep my heart alive, keep my heart alive
Only You can save me from a world that's breaking right before my eyes
Keep my heart alive

Take these empty "hallelujahs", and fill my lungs again
'Cause I want to sing, and I want to mean it
I want to feel again
And let the world hear the sound of something divine
Jesus keep my heart alive
Keep my heart alive
Only You can save me when my world is breaking right before my eyes

Jesus keep my heart alive
Keep my heart alive
Only You can save me when my hope is fading, and I'm losing the fight

And when the world wears me down,
You're my lifeline
You keep my heart alive

There's just so many WHYs in life that cannot be answered. Or just answers we don't wanna hear. Which is why, faith is truly comforting.

Goodbye, Janice. And may you now have the full ability to dance your heart out in heaven.

Today, I challenge myself to Josh McDowell's 1 year devo plan on my touchscreen phone.

I very happening

Busy busy meeting up with people, christmas presentation, James' MV and packing (or about to).

Today was awesome. Started off with a morning 40mins walk with Deb at Kiara park. Talking and panting at the same time wasn't easy. But good stuff! especially since dance ended last week.

Also, managed to catch lunch with Jas last minute! Was such a great time. Waited half an hour for her to find a parking and then spent time eating fried chicken with our hands while we talk about life, nonsense and everything else. Then, we went shopping for her grandad's present and finally grocery shopping. Hilarious. Took a couple of minutes deciding on which beef to get, making fun of food brands and lastly when we went to pay......express counter was for 8 items and below. How many she had? 10. Ten. So, I took the 2 lightest stuff. The herbs. =.= and we paid separately.
Then there was this guy behind us holding to 2 coconuts in his hands. Oh that was funny.

Dance practice went well too. Oh the beautiful lights!!! I pulled a muscle on my shoulder and I hope it'll heal before Saturday. My last performance here. *sighs*

I love today. Though the sky was gloomy, my day felt well spent.

I can't study when I cry.
I can't rub my wet eyes when I have contacts on.

God. If you don't open a door for me now, I'm gonna start loosing it.

Updates!

Today I had my first bye byes. The last CF meeting. Hmm...I've so much to reflect on, which I will do after finals. Today was like every other meeting but with more goodbyes. Those graduating and leaving overseas got hand decorated cups! So touching *sniffs*.

Also, met up with a friend I have been planning to. Hearing how God has planned everything for her seemed so unbelievable. As I sat there for a couple of minutes just amazed, there I was partly worrying about me. Where was my miracle? at the 11th hour again? Where was the assurance that she got? We both shared our parts and agreed that the annoying and troubling part was WAITING. Waiting for answers, confirmation and on God.
*exhales* my heart is so not at ease. Daily I get reminders and emails about this from mum and dad and I just don't know what to do. I feel like flying to aus right now and march to Curtin to get answers myself. =(

Putting all that aside, I was a great day. Dim sum & berbonding with Esther, being there for the last CF for the year.

Lots more to do! (and now I shall go back to studying)

MS. GRUMPY

I feel terrible. Especially this past week. I'm pissed at people for the smallest reasons. Pissed at technology, pissed at people nagging, pissed at not understanding what I'm studying, pissed at thinking of apologizing, pissed at myself for getting ticked off so easily.

SIGH.