Updates!

Today I had my first bye byes. The last CF meeting. Hmm...I've so much to reflect on, which I will do after finals. Today was like every other meeting but with more goodbyes. Those graduating and leaving overseas got hand decorated cups! So touching *sniffs*.

Also, met up with a friend I have been planning to. Hearing how God has planned everything for her seemed so unbelievable. As I sat there for a couple of minutes just amazed, there I was partly worrying about me. Where was my miracle? at the 11th hour again? Where was the assurance that she got? We both shared our parts and agreed that the annoying and troubling part was WAITING. Waiting for answers, confirmation and on God.
*exhales* my heart is so not at ease. Daily I get reminders and emails about this from mum and dad and I just don't know what to do. I feel like flying to aus right now and march to Curtin to get answers myself. =(

Putting all that aside, I was a great day. Dim sum & berbonding with Esther, being there for the last CF for the year.

Lots more to do! (and now I shall go back to studying)

MS. GRUMPY

I feel terrible. Especially this past week. I'm pissed at people for the smallest reasons. Pissed at technology, pissed at people nagging, pissed at not understanding what I'm studying, pissed at thinking of apologizing, pissed at myself for getting ticked off so easily.

SIGH.

Bye bye kiddos

Super chun outfit!

Friday was the last day of work at Peter & Jane. Celebrating children's day with them made my day. Once again, the pretty, interesting and smart costumes and......FOOD. There were cakes, cupcakes, chocolates, cookies and junk food everywhere. Oh how I miss celebrating children's day in primary school. haha.

Really gonna miss them. So much. It's kinda sad to know that they might forget me. When I visit next year, there will be new faces and faces who are no longer there. It is sad. Will miss those who are moving on to primary school.

The 'superstar' in nursery

The boy with gorgeous eyes and brings fruit to school everyday

Perceptions, perceptions.

Few things I learnt in CF today :
-God does what is best for His church. If anyone stood out like gangrene, they will be rid off like Ananias and Sapphira.

And everything came down to this amazing truth....

Judgement always comes hand in hand with Love.

....that God judges in love, and His love is just.

Love & Redemption

Redeeming Love.

Another beautiful, captivating, heart-pounding novel.

The word 'Love'. What meaning does it carry, or is it a foul word?. The disgusting past people carry like ‘old baggage’ everywhere they go. Perceptions on others and the bitterness people carry due to unknowingly forming judgments. The beauty of knowing God forgives and will never forsake his children. The terrible feeling of guilt acting as though nothing had happened. Accepting another’s judgment, believing the shame belongs. Once like this, always like this. The feeling of unworthy-ness to receive unconditional love from another. The feeling of life and warmth when someone brushes on one’s skin instead of being numb to touch. Knowing the importance of being loved. A love that comes with sacrifice and not pride. To believe that God works through anyone. And to also know that God is a jealous God. To know my identity in Him and not wrap myself around what others say about me behind my back.

My loving father, I pray that you guard my heart as how I read about the character Francine Rivers wrote in her novel.

I want to be beautiful

Make you stand in awe

Look inside my heart and be amazed

I want to hear you say

Who I am is quite enough

Just wanna be worthy of love and BEAUTIFUL.

-Beautiful by Bethany Dilon-

Ah….what a great weekend!

The girls’ part 2 was amazing. The deco was great, the photo booth was perfect with the lights and additional props, the food was yummy, beautiful & sumptuous desserts were made by a friend, pretty door gifts, the girls dressed beautifully, endless photo taking and ministry time with Mrs Piper was such a success when the Holy Spirit worked through some of the girls. All the effort, moments of dissatisfaction, lack of sleep etc didn’t matter anymore during the event. God was there to turn all imperfection to His perfect plan. I can breathe out and say “Thank you God for humbling moments and the girls truly are, your precious, beautiful princesses. “

Home-baked! With butterflies!

Looks amazing, no? They tasted sooo good.

Dance to 'The Real Me'

Oh, do we just love dancing!

Sunday, we all looked sleepy, some zoned out and some overly hyper. Our small presentation for Pastor’s birthday turned out to be a beautiful moment for him. I can’t imagine any other way to redo the performance. The song touched his heart, the funny moments at the end with strimmers and party hats created a cheery atmosphere. Thank you God for a loving pastor who has such a big heart.

Selah in Progress

After Annette's sharing in CF today, I realize how important it is to have 'company' with God and that it's OK to blame God and wrestle with Him about anything under the sun.

Of course, something happened. I have to give away RM50 for a lousy cause. The fault is mine.....but I don't see how this is 'beneficial'. It's a lot. And with what's been happening, I can't believe it.

But then......today I learnt that its not in quiet places or places of serenity where I should try to find God, but in my current situation. It's a whole lot of effort......but it's worth the try.