PRASIA

Made new friends from the Philippines! It's a good thing to know who people who stay in the church's guest house.

They sang so well, I got goosebumps. Singing in parts so well and confidently in a group is the amazing-est thing ever. They sound like a music track with such clear pronunciation. Of course, the sound guy played a huge role, but wow.

Carnavaaaaal

Had my first meat buffet ever!! And it was good. A hole in my pocket but at least I enjoyed it and I’d rather this than fine-dining. =)There was beef, fish, prawns, lamb, ham, chicken, sausages, 'interesting' garlic bread and pineapple! Nyom nyom nyom.

The past few days of lack of appetite, I’m glad it went away yesterday. I was a lil’ more hungry during lunch and dinner turned out good! (pulling out from Carnaval would be trouble. hahaha). Had the chance to enjoy what I put on my plate and even taking it down with a good feeling. Mmmmmm.

Dum dum tak!

I can't believe it is already over!!!! One month of dance stress has passed. The excitement of moving into a new building has happened! Woohoo!

The performance was great. Though the biggest mistake made, was made. But it was an awesome time. To be on stage, with people I hardly know, doing a hip hop routine under a choreographer who we enjoyed having too. Come to think of it, this is probably one of the last performances I will get to do before I go to aus. sigh.

The lights were great, there were no technical errors and all of us had so much fun. After one upsetting rehearsal the week before, we managed to perform with so much 'umph', and we got good feedback. That sunday was our turning point. Really thank God we cleaned up the mess together as youths of Grace Assembly. Wasn't easy to push people considering I wasn't much of a 'Leader' in uth. But God answered my prayer. He gave me an opportunity to take charge of something I had a passion for. Like Lydia said, it isn't so much of our destination but our journey there. Those were tough weeks having to attend practices for this and ghm. Most importantly, to show that I am dedicated to each and not neglect either one. =)

The procession under GHM was amazing too. Though I almost tripped on my skirt =( and bumped the crown into my brother's, it felt so amazing to be up there and to feel the awe. The sound of tambourines filled the entire place and with banners and strimmers. Looking at every child to adult in different attires dancing to that beautiful song felt really majestic. Plus, it was my first time wearing the 'bride' attire. I've never worn a tiara! And I've realized how difficult it is to keep one on one's head. haha.
I grew up in this ministry, and I'm proud to be able to lead others, as how I was taught. Uncle has always been like a second father to me. Encouraging me, joking around with me, giving me opportunities, making me feel special just like how he treats his children. For this, I am so blessed.

As always, there's picture time after performances. And since we all had interesting roles, the outfits we had on were so interesting! The pictures looked hilarious. I personally had a great time being a character I had no idea how to play. Rushing to change from the previous outfit was tough. Safety pins and hair pins...what an experience. The 'nerdy' outfit took me ages to decide on. In the end, I decided to wear overalls which made me look fat, stunted and plain silly. Plus, I realized at the last minute behind stage that doing the 'baby freeze' in that was very restricting. The safety pin popped! Glad it went well on stage, yes. Phew!

Right now, I am so tired yet excited for what's happened tonight. Thank you God for an amazing night with people.

Couldn't have done it without Lydia

"I wouldn't know"

Bright lit smiles,
Words of praise,
Things I always remember,
And a song my heart sings
Once upon a December.

Someone holds me safe and warm,
Memories flow through a heavy storm,
Figures dancing gracefully,
Tis' only just a dream,

Years went by, long ago,
Still I yern to remember,
In my sleep, someone sings,
Once upon a December

Now a song I will sing,
Once upon a December.

We gonna do stunts! Jason showed us a few like they were so easy, as he said so.
I would really really love to do ALL that.

So he taught us how to do the 'baby freeze'. The guys were given no choice to do the 'chair freeze'. Oh poor them. But it looks pretty cool!!! Now, I don't have to do the 'shoulder freeze' cos it hurts like crazy. I am proud of my self for accomplishing the baby freeze in a couple of hours. After so many bad landings, bruises, failed attempts.......I have gotten it. I found my spot! Now, just have to Pray that everyone including me, will be able to FREEZE for a couple of seconds. Really really hope so.

Sunday's rehearsal came with discouraging comments. But I'm glad and so proud that everyone made it a point to push for more. Yesterday's practice was very technical, but productive! Performance is this sunday!!! *deep breaths* I'm not sure if I feel excited about moving into the new building or that I'm just nervous about how the performance is gonna turn out at a new stage, new flooring and new Everything!

There's this feeling deep down that I may not be doing the right thing. On what basis? Being too contemporary for the congregation. Like I'm a rebel or something. I don't have any evil intentions, just excitement to do a dance I (and others) enjoy. The opportunity to let the youths do moves they're really good at and hopefully break a few mindsets, especially during this event of 'Moving up'.

*yawns*

Time for some updates!

Been sleeping A Lot. Too much actually. But it's hard to say No to my want to sleep. mmmmmm.

Also, been doing lots of danciiinnn'. Usual class on wed with a new hip-hop routine for the church dedication performance on sat and practices on mon & tues. How's it feel? Exciting, challenging, refreshing & tiring. This is the first time I've had to really listen to a song and have a sudden "Oh I hear that beat!" moment. I get to have four sessions of hip-hop for RM20, which is pretty good. I'm fascinated by how fast the moves are and how I just can't get certain movements (which are unexplainable). Yesterday's practice was so tiring, I came home and gulped down 2 glasses of iced juice and made me oats!

Jas' birthday just passed 2 days ago. I miss going to school and taking my seat next to her; the girl who brings a super huge backpack and a romp plastic bag for her books, who randomly scribbles on my book, who allows me to copy notes from her book when my eyesight fails to read what the teacher writes on the board, who always declined my request to back-up sing for chapel, who told me she'll support me no matter what, who knew my thoughts, who spent a couple of hours teaching me factorization, who listens more than talk & who always encouraged.

Daddy's going back to aus this friday to start the new business. Then it'll be just mum and siblings again. When dad's around, the stuff at home and the cars get fixed. The bills get paid.

Su will also be leaving to Switzerland this friday. I can't believe how fast time has flown by. Few months ago she was telling us how many months she has to bum and take french classes. And now, she's gonna go so far away. Another friend away. There will be less company during outings and sleepovers. Fewer girls to pillow talk with. =) When my turn comes, I wonder how would I feel. heh.

I want to cry. And pull my hair out. And cry.